spoiled chinese girl

my date for modprom knows more Chinese than I do.

If I ever had to leave Canada for the majority of the rest of my life, I wouldn't want it to end any other way. Sitting on the loading dock at Badur's with a handful of people I barely know.

I knew I held out on joining facebook for a reason. It's slightly creepy they insist on using your real legal name. (Using a nickname, or an initial is against their TOS, a girl I know got kicked off for using a widely known nickname… I don't even know what her legal name is) And that they're asking for so much info from you like your phone#'s and addresses etc to “Share with your friends”

*Ahem* Now suddenly, if I want to write on a “wall” I need to type in one of those catchpa random verification codes. And it says if I don't want to keep having to type these in I need to verify my account.

And… if I want to verify my account, I need to give them my mobile phone number. How many ways can you spell NOT HAPPENING?

“Based on your suspension experience, what do you hope to learn to improve the safety and experience of those being suspended?”

From the moment suspension entered my mind as a viable act my mind and body would be able to successfully handle; I have looked towards improving the experience for myself and for others. Current suspension practitioners I have the honour of knowing are my inspiration to follow the path they have lead.

In myself, I hope learning more of the preparation, the thoughtfulness, care, heartache and determination that suspension practitioners exhibit when aiding my experience, will help me be more thankful, and be more understanding to the hard work they have put forth to make my suspension a happy and successful adventure. My experiences being suspended are limited, but the attention and concern for my well-being was exhibited every time, no matter the outcome. I look up to these people that have helped me through all of my physical, mental and spiritual goals, allowing me to move at my pace being free from judgement. I hope to learn to think like them, and be them, and show my thanks to them through being there for others.

With others, I hope learning and understanding the motions I go through, rather than just going through motions, will help make suspension experiences for those who I assist in their own journeys. I aspire to be able to create sanitary, safe and positive experiences for those who will share themselves with me, and the lectures, and training within the program will be able to raise the learning curve; so I can more quickly be confident in my abilities and more quickly become comfortable in suspension settings to be able to continue learning through being present, doing work, and asking good questions. My goal is to learn from everyone, to take in knowledge from different experiences and incorporate them into future suspensions, making these experiences as comfortable and easy going for potential suspension participants as I have had in the past.

I have no aspirations to run off and start my own suspension team, or group, or practice suspending people privately, or largely involving only me, for a long time afterwards. The suspension school will be a large stepping stone from what I have learned already from mere observing and questioning. My fear is what holds me back, and in my mind, fear and understanding are inversely proportional. The more I understand about suspensions, the less I will fear, and become at ease with my skills, abilities and attributes.

All I really want out of the suspension school is to have better working knowledge of everything that happens. With many events in my life, I can appreciate the hard work and dedication that goes into any performance, or any impressive act. But the ability to understand and be able to accurately recreate events is what makes me appreciate it that much more. At some point in my life, I was told that you can never truly appreciate what someone has done for you until you do it for someone else. Ive always believed that.