Secrets and lies
I watched Monsters Inc a few hours ago when it was on CBC. I always loved that movie. Watched it in theaters when it first came out. Bought the DVD for a friend of mine to watch at his house. Then when we stopped being friends I downloaded it to watch it some more.
One thing I noticed today that I never noticed any of the other times (likely because I didn't know it existed back then) Where Boo finally goes home, and she starts handing Sully a bunch of toys. He tucks her in and hands her a Finding Nemo doll. Finding Nemo came out like a year or so later!! So this was just a cute little secret thing I figured out now that I never knew existed before. I already know that in the closing credits for Finding Nemo, they have a bunch of the characters interact with the text (swimming through it, getting hit by it) and there's a part where Mike swims through wearing snorkling gear. But this is the first time I saw it the other way around.
The sucky part about watching this movie is what it brings back. I miss him. Only because he's not in my life anymore, and I still think about him. Not every day, I've gotten past that, but enough. I think the last time I saw him was a year ago. I suddenly wanted to call him, and got through, and we became friends again for a month. I somehow/stupidly got him and his girlfriend back together, and he (once again) dropped me. I called a few weeks ago actually too. And got someone else on the phone. But they knew I wanted to talk to him. And gave me a new number. I never called this new number though. I don't know if I want to. Part of me thinks I should, just to say hi & how's it going. Other part thinks I'm an idoit who doesn't know how to let go. But it's hard to let go of something you've never had. I'm definately a different person than I was 5 years ago. But part of me still wants to be 18. Back when it was acceptable to attempt and eat a 10lb Toberlone chocolate bar (and for the most part I did, it took me about 2 months), and buy DVD's when I didn't own a player, and go to the gym for 4 hours just so I could wait for him to get off work.
I went to my first BME bbq with him. And he wasn't the only person there without (and didn't want) piercings and tattoos. He saw suspensions up close before I did. He still owes me like $300 from a loan that's now at least 3 years old. I used his points card so he could get free flights faster. I bought his daughter a birthday present (and his girlfriend didn't even think of that) when he finally was going to meet her for the first time.
I always liked guys that act like jerks. I never figured out why.
